The evils of living alone, to be in a big house, to hear footsteps that you think you heard but are not sure, to wonder if someone is in your basement lurking there behind a door, to think there is someone there who is not, to not know if someone has a key to your house, to be afraid of every little thing, every sound.
Having evil surround you as there is no one there to share with, no one to give you a kind word, you strike out at others and try to instill this fear in them because you are yourself in constant fear, to have hatred come into your being, to be surrounded by spirits not by living people, to wonder why no one visits you, to count on your children as your only friends, to bite them viciously as you are alone even though you have them in your presence, to covet your children's lives, to wish they were living with you again as a family but this wish cannot come true, to hate your children as you live without them as their children live with them, to have jealousies for their activities, to be alone and have this aloneness cause you constant distress, to say the wrong words, words guided by the evils of aloneness, not to be able to bite your tongue before you say words to hurt someone.
The evils of living alone, wickedness will creep into your heart, it will overcome your heart and you will not be able to love.
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