TORAH STUDY--SEEKING AND FINDING

 

Wondering a lot, wanting to know, needing to get an answer, finding information, feeling an itch to get it, learning something you never learned before. Knowing what others do not know. Being in a class by oneself, eating of the Tree of Good and Evil, biting the apple of The Tree of Knowledge. Sharing your knowledge. No one understanding, no background for digesting the information. Wishing others could feel it too. Teaching and wanting others to know too, to find what you are looking for. To come to fruition. To have success.

Finding and knowing you are now richer than before. An addition to your glossary, another fact in your dictionary. Another gem to shine. Another jewel to glisten. A lot of good stuff, a frequent feeling of grandeur, a supposition that becomes true.

A reason to be. A reason to live. To acquire more. To be rich in knowledge. To be a scholar and to study eternally. A Malamud--an eternal student. Studying with the intent of teaching. Sharing.

Studying to do an action that reflects what you learn. Studying Torah, reading the Prophets, comprehending the Writings. Always having it in your pocket to whip it out when you need it.

Chanting blessings to bring holiness to everything that happens in your day. Feeling holiness as you get closer to The Almighty G-d. More and more. Finding, flourishing, succeeding, sharing, becoming deeply philosophic. Grasping for answers to questions you never knew you could ask.

Asking a Rabbi. Getting an answer that makes your life easier. Groping and receiving. Feeling an honorable day, one of learning and teaching. Studying Torah is all it takes to make your day--a great one.